I honestly don't think some of the questions asked in week 3 can be answered in any type of way that would give justice to the true purpose of this course. I've been tasked in previous classes with taking a 'time out' and evaluating myself in spiritual, physical, and mental areas. My response was that I feel good, but I could be doing better; isn't that everyone's consensus? So what if I assign a rating of 7 to any of the aforementioned areas, would my goal be to get it to a 9? How do I even quantify something like that?
I could be better. That's the point. It's also the problem. The deep sense of general dissatisfaction is like a radioactive waste spill in our lives. It sits there ominous, spreading, and it radiates in the back of our actions without having an immediate or obvious affect.
I guess if I had any goal for these three areas it would be to incorporate love into everything I do: the way I fold my laundry, the way I talk to my friends and family, the attention I devote to my work, the method I read books, and the technique in which I practice Brazilian jujitsu. I've been mulling on this concept for days now and honestly I do feel something inside telling me this is right. I feel myself doing things slower and with greater care. I've decided to continue on this path with no purpose other than to project what might be the best part of me into what I do.
The relaxation exercise to me was frustrating because I wasn't ready to accept it. I think this was primarily due to the visualization I had during my spiritual evaluation of myself. "In order to promote my spiritual well-being, I will meditate 3 times a week and attend the church I was raised in once a month." This seems so fickle to me, and dissapoints me in a way I can't fully describe. Maybe I'm just being difficult. a
I could be better. That's the point. It's also the problem. The deep sense of general dissatisfaction is like a radioactive waste spill in our lives. It sits there ominous, spreading, and it radiates in the back of our actions without having an immediate or obvious affect.
I guess if I had any goal for these three areas it would be to incorporate love into everything I do: the way I fold my laundry, the way I talk to my friends and family, the attention I devote to my work, the method I read books, and the technique in which I practice Brazilian jujitsu. I've been mulling on this concept for days now and honestly I do feel something inside telling me this is right. I feel myself doing things slower and with greater care. I've decided to continue on this path with no purpose other than to project what might be the best part of me into what I do.
The relaxation exercise to me was frustrating because I wasn't ready to accept it. I think this was primarily due to the visualization I had during my spiritual evaluation of myself. "In order to promote my spiritual well-being, I will meditate 3 times a week and attend the church I was raised in once a month." This seems so fickle to me, and dissapoints me in a way I can't fully describe. Maybe I'm just being difficult. a
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